Learning and Growing as a Grandfather and Person

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I look, but I don’t really see; I listen, but I don’t hear; I touch, but I don’t feel.

Oh, finally now I am beginning to perceive and understand this amazing thing…this new person…it is an awakening!

I will continue down this curious and fascinating path, wherever it may lead…

When my first grandchild, Tristan, was born a few months ago, everyone in our family was ecstatic about our new addition. While I felt happy and pleased, I just didn’t quite seem to feel their same strength and depth of emotion. I was amazed by the sheer miracle of birth, however. Right after Tristan was born, I commented, “Wow, that’s crazy! That kid just came out of her, breathing fine, perfectly formed, just like a small person!” (Obviously I don’t get out much.)

My lack of emotion made me feel a little weird, and sad. What am I missing, in this situation, and in myself as a person?

I actually am missing some experiences in my life that most people have had. My parents were only children, so I had no aunts or uncles, and therefore no nieces or nephews. And since I was the third of four children, the only sibling baby I experienced was my lovely little sister, Colleen. Otherwise, there were simply no babies around the house while I was growing up, which is a bit unusual. And then, more by way of choice, I had no contact with babies as an adult, since I just didn’t feel very comfortable around them.

In spite of my stunted experiences with infants, little by little, the awareness of how special my grandson is, and the love I feel for him, is beginning to grow within me. I can feel it welling up inside me, day by day, growing and developing, just as he is also growing and developing.

I have started to think about how I hope he has a happy and special childhood. I have begun to dream about what special talents he might have, and how I can help him cultivate them and become the best person he can be. I am beginning to feel the joy and satisfaction of leaving a legacy, in the form of the man Tristan will eventually become, one who will be true, kind, and loving.

An awakening inside me has begun, and it is a wonderful feeling.

Since these are uncharted waters for me, I plan to simply enjoy this new journey day by day, and see what new experiences and learnings it brings.

Tristan is very, very special. I love him dearly, and it will be fascinating to see, and be an important part of, what the future holds for both of us, God willing.

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TIM MCINTYRE retired in 2004 from his position as president of Applied Systems after facilitating a successful sale of the company. At only forty-six years old, he made the unusual decision to fully retire to pursue other interests and simply enjoy free time. As a hard-driving Type A personality, this turned out to be a significant challenge for the Notre Dame and University of Chicago-educated MBA, CPA, and Certified Cash Manager.

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  1. Tina Thompson says:

    I agree with Elsa. I always wondered why my mom kept baby pictures in frames around the house instead of changing them out as we grew. Now I know…us moms of teenagers have to remember the “easy” times 🙂

    Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy! Congratulations!

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